A Solitary Night Walk

I don't know why am I so depressed all the time. I can't take stress anymore, I feel so isolated.. I am fed up with my life !! Now the headache joins with all these too. The only thing I'm afraid of, the only thing that can destroy me so easily. Took the 3rd shot of 60mg Caffeine, but it still feels the same. I guess I've got a really bad cold. I can't breathe properly, and can't hear anyone clearly from the morning either. Thousands of thoughts, thousands of question, but I've no one to share. Sometimes life seems so meaningless. I was supposed to shave my face and get a haircut tonight, otherwise I won't have my dinner at my place.. Ammu said 'I will not let you eat here, in this house, until you cut your hair..!! do you know you are looking like a criminal' !! but I really don't think so.. [or may be its true...]

I was walking through the 68[A]th road of Gulshan 2, near the north park lake. It was truly amazing. I've dropped some photographs to my clients apartment there, collect the bill and then started walking aimlessly near by. I wish I had someone with me then !! After a long time, finally I had got a chance to make this walk. Roads were quieter than usual because it was friday night, nearly 9:10pm on my watch. Fortunately it was a full moon night too. Rained a lot in the morning so the weather was cool, sky was clear.. air was fresh and so light that if you didn't want to breathe, it will get inside of you. Every time when it was blowing over me, I felt like someone was touching me with her cold and soft fingers. I really wish I had someone with me then. While I'm crossing the 59th road, I found a girl with belly flowers on a small clay pot, wearing a white dress, no shoes, age wasn't more than 10 for sure. She was running towards me with her smiling face, and trying to convince me to buy some. haha she didn't know that i was already convinced when I saw, she has belly flowers on her pot.. truly incredible fragrance..


[P.S. no haircut.. no dinner.. ]